The Start

So I decided to write this blog to maybe help me. I am not sure if anyone else will ever see it but this is set up to help me with some life changes that I want and need to make.
I am 37 years old and have a wonderful family. Yet I always wonder what I can do differently. I have wanted to loose weight for years, I have dealt with health problems, marriage problems (who doesn't go through those from time to time) and I am now on the quest to find who I am. I feel that through having kids, marriage and working I have forgotten who I really am. I used to be energetic, fun, not stressed and had the world at my feet. Now finding that with giving all my time to my kids and spouse I don't know who I am anymore. Sure I am a mother and a wife but what do I like to do? If I had one whole day to myself that didn't include, Laudry, being a Taxi, and lets face it feeling like a slave to everyone else what would I do?
I say I want to go back to school, I do want that but will I have time, money and the support of my family. So I guess this is just a way for me to be able to ramble on and help me with life changes that I feel I need to do. I have goals, yes in the midst of doing everything else I have goals. I need to loose 100 lbs (little bit at a time), Have an organized home, Kids that don't get frustrated with me, and to be a better wife. I guess we will see how this all turns out... Because at this time in my life I can't take another Fail...